Guys,
To all who commented with food for thought, thank you.
To all who prayed for me, or merely hoped that everything would turn out OK, thank you. If you sacrificed small animals, I'm not sure it helped, but thank you.
This evening I went to my friends' house to retrieve my stuff. I am back home, we are together (somewhat).
We still have issues to work through (what a surprise, eh?). After I left my wife had an old boyfriend drop into her lap. She later found out he's an alcoholic, but in the meantime had purchased a cell phone for him to have a constant number to help him get a job. It didn't help, and left us with a multi-hundred phone bill. She feels extremely guilty over everything that's happened, but I've told her I accept half the blame because if I were doing what I needed to be doing, none of this would have happened. The boyfriend? He scared the hell out of her in a drunken stupor and he's history.
I've been seeing a counselor for about 3 weeks now. I was evidently in depression. Getting kicked out of the house, my comfort zone, woke up something in me that brought back the fighter in me. I'm now ready to take charge of this family and straighten out the mess that has become our lives. I've asked her to join me at the counselor next time. I think it'll happen.
Now the real work begins, trying to rebuild what little we have left. It'll take time, but I firmly believe, and fervently hope, that we will get there together.
Jay Back in action once again